After staying in Kailua for 13 days to do nothing but work (and eat), and spending time in Maui, I’m back on Oahu.

During my plane ride home I basically broke down what keeps me busy in my life during the past 2 months:

• work
• eat icecream
• work some more
• travel
• sleep for less than 20 hours a week
• socialize with friends
• work some more
• travel some more
• shop
• work some more
• shop some more
• do artsy/crafty things
• work
• travel

That sounds about right. 

Lately I feel like a lot of people (including myself) have been concerned about my love life. Nothing ever happens when I’m not busy. Now that I’m extremely busy and am always limited on time, my limits are even more narrowed down. But that means I would have to actually make time for another human in my life and go out, socialize, fulfill sexual needs, make sandwiches, and try to look attractive…

Nevermind I don’t need a love life.

I’ve had a week where I really questioned myself as to if I’m actually good at what I’m doing and if my work is even worthy.
Either I’m just hitting walls with my lack of confidence or I’m stuck with extremely tough people…. Or both.

I suddenly have this sad/frustrating feeling where I feel like I won’t be good enough for a lot of people.

It’s been a shit week.

Frustrated with the people at work and the amount of work I have to do…

Ugh, I guess it’s another sleepless night.

I’m saddened by the fact that it ended too quickly. It’s definitely been wonderful and everything that I would want in a city. 

I definitely consider myself fortunate and am excited to go back next month, and this time for a longer period of time.

Maybe next time I’ll pack up all of my things and just stay there forever.